With every beat the heart aches…/ An ache so deep the soul is shaken. Is this where total and absolute surrender meets stubborn and self-righteous? There has been sin that has taken room in my heart. Deceit so well hid under the make-up it almost impossible to recognize it. It is almost foundation.
I have been /still am stealing in the name of 'right'. Stealing from my earthly father, but praying that my heavenly father understands. Understands that I need to care for the entire family, they need me. I have made myself into a god, their god. I have built up their trust in me. Let them believe the lie that I am able to do all things. That I have them covered. The flesh has continually been fed and now it's obese.
I know I need to let go and let God but the God-complex also wants to be heard/fed and obeyed. So I never put up a fight. Keep the ‘Robin hood’ act, rob the rich to feed the poor. So the spirit has been robbed to feed the flesh.
So here, I thought I was going to let go and let loose. And maybe just maybe I will. But not my kind of letting loose... step into the field, put on the full armor and submit to the process, utter submitting to the spirit...
The uncovering to be covered!!
