There I was standing in the corridors of KNH starring at nothing as it stared back to me. If only I had

uhuru's number so I could call him and ask him unataka nifanye nini? I heard the president asked

the same question to a room of important people in state house. Important people are supposed to

be smart that is why we pay them big salos so they know what to fanya to reduce graft. But when

important people don't know what to do, mnataka tufanye nini? So there I was with mama

wondering nini tufanya about this, wondering how life could be so unfair to such a hardworking

woman.

Our mothers go through hell to bring us into this world and God gives them the grace to handle our

pain. Yet there is no tomemnt on earth that can equate to the pain of watching the one who brought

you to this world suffer. A storm was brewing inside me by the time we left that office, I was ready

turn off that humanity switch that keeps me on the right side of the law. Mama was ready to throw

some un-Christian words to an employer who had betrayed her at her hour of need. You see Mama

has been working in KNH way before I could sit or stand. She has not only given her best years, but

also given her heart to KNH. This woman loves her job, I have seen her go 3-5 days without sleep just

to make sure that her patients are okay. She is one of those health care professionals who took the

care part of her job a little too seriously. Yet when one of her little cubs was in need they turned

their backs on us. The hospital and Insurance misled us to believe that they would cover the cost

only for them to back out at the last minute. Now we are stuck with a bill that makes you wish your

last name was gates. (Insurance, story for another day, when calmness finds its way back). So mama

is in a fix, she goes through all departments to get a grace period of paying the bill and gets some

forms from the legal department to be filled in the finance department. (Here is where the level of

madness escalate) the Finance department see it fit to tell Mama that they DO NOT offer any credit

even to their own...this is a LIE! Why would the legal department have forms for undertaking if there

are no undertakings? I ask. Then comes the question "what do you want me to do"... *blank look*

And I feel many things, sometimes all things that everyone around me feels. And the feelings are

visible! I see them pacing inside my head! They have conference meetings without my consent! They

make decisions that not even the body can object to!

So when My president asks me 'anataka ni fanye nini? ' these words sting! my heart breaks a little

more! The state in which this state is in, breaks my heart! When I hear 5 billion has been stolen from

the healthcare sector it makes me want to take care of someone with my healthy fists of furry. I

think we all worked our way to mediocrity! Mediocrity in all areas is the "cool kid" and we (yes, we,)

want to be 'with it'.So we make mediocrity part of 'our culture'. I have had it up to here *touches

temple* I am done with having deep waters faith in the shallow end!

So what will I do? I will put on my big girl's andies and go do what needs to be done! No more

passive aggression that finds courage at the comfort of the keypads! No more Que sera sera

attitude! I am enraged!

Mr. President you know I have nothing but utter ,respect for you and the authority you have over

this nation so feel free to go be the PRESIDENT! That is what I would like you to do!