Forbidden Love Lament

In a effort to get back on this word bandwagon, Let's start off on a light note...

 I Miss You - Is what my soul thinks it wants to say, somehow in a convoluted dimension, It's deceived itself into believing that it is ok to miss you. But just like the water misses electricity, I miss you!

My mind wants to bounce off it's thoughts with you, get your perspective, but that is letting you into a glimpse of my soul. Gasoline and matchbox. Flames!

There is a reset button in my body that I did not know of its existence till you turned up with its pass key. Now I do not know how to turn it off! With every passive hug, the earth beneath me wants to give in.

So I will tell the wind how much I miss you, how much every inch of my body longs for you, how my mind cannot stop drifting into you. I will tell the wind that in another life another universe, I'd tell you. But not in this. Not in this world!

As the wind belongs to another, so do you. So I hope this never gets to you. I hope this stays only in mind, body and soul. I hope you never get wind of this. 

So otherwise? 

Flawed beauty

Behind the perfect 'Insta pics' / lies perfect hurts.

We prevaricate from the insecurities / pains / struggles / and paint perfect white picket-fence lives. The painting is a mirage - Do Not be Fooled!! What we innately need is a perfect love! One that sees us without the Mac and and the filters. One that does not need perfectly put together words. One that loves our essence.

It's okay to show the flaws! It's okay to be honest! It's okay not to be 'Living it up'! It's okay to show who you are!

I pray we(I) stop buying the lie.

#NoMoreComfortZones
#IntentionalLife
#lifeIsBeautiful
#NoMoreComfortzones

No Prayer

I haven't got a prayer in me!

You know one of those neatly put together words that can move mountains or that ought to be put in a prayer book and recited over generations.  I don't!

There is an easy way out : Silence : But even in silence words are heard.

The blank stares are interpreted as arrogance
The absence will be a present
The running is geeting me nowhere
The rat race in the rut is on!
The raging war between what is, what can be, what ought to be, will not let me be.

#DiscomfortZone
#NoMoreComfortzones

stupidly smitten

SMITTEN
The world never stops, not even for a milli second
I have proof that it does!
Heard his unspoken words and the world came to a stand still
Everything came to a stand still!
The birds listened to my pounding heart; the trees awaited my breath,
The sun hid behind the cloud; and the air couldn’t find its way to me!
I need not go to space! It jusT came to me and Alas! The world STOPPED
BREATHLESSLY SMITTEN!

I know it’s not his irresistible cologne or the killer smile
It sure aign’t his scrumptious mouth watering dishes,
Neither is it the charisma showcased in his sway!
What is it about him that takes my breath away every time I think of him?
Why does his voice linger on in my mind long after the goodnights?
Are the ulcers terrified of his existence?
MUST BE WHO HE MAKES ME WANT TO BE!

So this be my prayer
Lord-Your will be done!
If another gets to feel the earth come to a stand still,
Thank You God for the opportunity of having a dazzling friend
May we FOREVER remain FRIENDS
And if he be my king,
LET ME BE THE PROVERBS 31 WOMAN!